Thankful Thursday – Sept 19, 2013
I haven’t done a Thankful Thursday post in a long time, but felt like I should write one today. As you probably don’t know, I keep a handwritten journal – in addition to this blog – because I really do have a lot in my head that comes out at weird times. So, yesterday, I was filling up pages of my journal with ink and happened upon the realization that, despite my emotional issues, my life is fantastic compared to what it was 7 years ago.
My life can be easily split into four distinct eras:
1) Ages 1 – 7 ~ Wild Jane.
2) Ages 7 – 14 ~ Wobbly Jane.
3) Ages 14-21 ~ Woeful Jane.
4) Ages 21-28 ~ Waking Jane.
I am happy that I made it to the fourth era. I am thankful to be alive and to exist in my life. It is actually a very good life, even though I can’t see that sometimes. I like to make lists, so I ended up jotting down a comparative list for my feelings from 2006 and 2013. The two lists are basically full of opposites. My life now is much calmer and peaceful than it was at age 21, which is the point where I decided I couldn’t remain in that complacent and dormant state of passivity.
Now, seven years on, my life has changed very much indeed. And, it’s exciting to recognize in real terms the progress I have made! It’s good to be able to have a realistic record of the changes I have had the courage to make for myself and the significantly positive changes in my personal thought processes and mentality.
Today, I am thankful to be alive. I am thankful for those people who care about me. I am thankful for the opportunity to share my success with you.
And now, I leave you to go into the next era of change – I begin my brain tests today to either confirm or rule out autism. I am interested in this process and will be happy to understand my brain once and for all in true scientific terms.
Hang in there my friend, I’m rooting for you. 🙂
– Jane