By Jane Tanfei|Feb 27 2014 | Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
Sometimes, I go out and play live music. On one such recent occasion, I had a pretty good time, and then I suddenly started to feel very alone. I felt really empty and isolated, despite the fact that there were kind people around and it had been a joyful evening. The strangest part is that […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Feb 10 2014 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
There is a set of ideas floating around my head – a qualitative and definitive understanding relative to my current emotions and thoughts and evoked by recent events in my life. The main tenets of this soon-to-be formulated understanding of my world: 1) Fear is irrelevant. 2) Money is irrelevant. 3) Intuition is key. 4) […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 13 2013 | Dreams, Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
My outlook on life has changed greatly in the years since I decided I needed to become my true self at all costs. I no longer look to the future with dread, I no longer accept the present with a feeling of despondency, I no longer look at the past with disdain. I have grown mentally and […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 10 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Technology, Thoughts
I’m trying to figure out why the materialism coming from other people bothers me so much. Truly, it does feel like it is emanating from other people – a palpable aura that makes me feel uneasy and corrupted. To be sure, I do sense ‘unusual’ things from other people – it is an energy that […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 18 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
I’ve thought a lot about what it means to be human. I’ve recently had the following revelation: I can never be a “normal human” because of my brain’s formatting. There are other humans who have a similar brain build, but I don’t know how to find common ground with them. I don’t know how to find […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Oct 23 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
Any good day I have is, invariably, followed by a bad day. It seems that the two are paired and cannot be separated. Anytime I have a good day, I sigh and tell myself I shall make the following day pleasant – though I fully expect the next day to bear terrible fruit. I cannot […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 01 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
I belong because I do not belong. My entire life has been one long succession of exclusion, derision, and awkwardness. I have never found myself in the center of a group of people who I feel comfortable around and who are comfortable around me. There are a few reasons for this: a) I scare people […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 27 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
I’m not feeling too terribly bad today, thankfully, but I do have one very frustrating thought reiterating through my mind: “Everybody would be better off without me.” I am sick of thinking that. I know it’s not true, but I still think it all the time. So, while I listen to some Doc Watson music, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 26 2013 | Humor, Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
If you know me in real life, or even if you just know me online, you know that I love nature. I, quite literally, cannot survive in the world without some connection to nature. When I stay inside for too long, I become anxious, angry, depressed, and then overwhelmed to the point where I become […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 24 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
When I talk about “my true love”, I am talking specifically about a set of feelings I actually feel. By “my true love” I actually mean “this love that I feel that is true and deep”. I’m not speaking in a possessive term about a person, though the feelings are for a specific person. These […]
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