By Jane Tanfei|Jan 15 2014 | Curiousity, Humor, Psychology, Thoughts
So, I’ve been preoccupied lately with trying to figure out exactly what people get out of romantic relationships. Basically, this consists of watching the interactions of couples, and taking mental notes about types of relationships vs. the body language and demeanor of the subjects. Maybe that sounds bizarre, but that’s how it really is for […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 16 2013 | Curiousity, Humor, Psychology, Thoughts
I once had a guildmate in Everquest called Freerolling. He was a friendly male halfling, and took me under his wing as a fellow halfling. This may or may not have had anything to do with my shapely halfling female avatar, her irresistible Leia-like hair of bright red, gray eyes blazing with mischief, and dainty […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 09 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts
I believe my oldest son has Asperger Syndrome. I also believe it’s my fault. Logically, I understand that this is a fallacy of thought. I can’t help what genetics he got from me, I didn’t even KNOW I had Asperger’s until he was eight years old. But, emotionally, I feel like I am responsible for […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Oct 16 2013 | Nerdcore, Psychology, Thoughts
I think one of the strangest things about me is that I genuinely feel love for everyone. Everyone. I feel empathy, caring, and love for every human on the planet. Even (sometimes especially) those who have expressed their hatred toward me. Now, I definitely see how this may seem contradictory, or like a waste of […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 27 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts, Writings
On September 19th, 2013 I walked into a neuropsychologist’s office a folder full of data and one main question: “What is wrong with me?”. An hour later, I walked out with an answer: Asperger’s Syndrome. The doctor reviewed the adult & childhood histories I’d provided, with many notes and explanations neatly denoted in the margins, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 19 2013 | Dreams, Psychology, Thoughts
I haven’t done a Thankful Thursday post in a long time, but felt like I should write one today. As you probably don’t know, I keep a handwritten journal – in addition to this blog – because I really do have a lot in my head that comes out at weird times. So, yesterday, I […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 13 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts
When I think about “changing the world”, I begin to feel despondent and impotent and worthless. This is not because I don’t want to change the world for the better, but because I know I likely cannot change the world for the better. I know that I have good intentions and that I want to […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 10 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts
I’ve realized that I say, “what people tell me” a lot. I say this because that’s how I perceive other people’s words – they are talking at me. I receive their words, but I do not absorb them into myself. When I refer to “what people tell me”, it’s because I’m specifically speaking about an […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 01 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
I belong because I do not belong. My entire life has been one long succession of exclusion, derision, and awkwardness. I have never found myself in the center of a group of people who I feel comfortable around and who are comfortable around me. There are a few reasons for this: a) I scare people […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 26 2013 | Humor, Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
If you know me in real life, or even if you just know me online, you know that I love nature. I, quite literally, cannot survive in the world without some connection to nature. When I stay inside for too long, I become anxious, angry, depressed, and then overwhelmed to the point where I become […]
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