By Jane Tanfei|Sep 27 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts, Writings
On September 19th, 2013 I walked into a neuropsychologist’s office a folder full of data and one main question: “What is wrong with me?”. An hour later, I walked out with an answer: Asperger’s Syndrome. The doctor reviewed the adult & childhood histories I’d provided, with many notes and explanations neatly denoted in the margins, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 19 2013 | Dreams, Psychology, Thoughts
I haven’t done a Thankful Thursday post in a long time, but felt like I should write one today. As you probably don’t know, I keep a handwritten journal – in addition to this blog – because I really do have a lot in my head that comes out at weird times. So, yesterday, I […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 17 2013 | Dreams, Thoughts
I’ll admit it – I’m clueless when it comes to “romance”. I looked up “romance” and the only useful definition I could find was “a baseless, made-up story, usually full of exaggeration or fanciful invention.” So, I looked up “romantic” and found that it is “characterized by a preoccupation with love or by the idealizing of love or one’s beloved.” So, then I looked up “beloved”, which is “a person who is greatly loved” and “love” […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 13 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts
When I think about “changing the world”, I begin to feel despondent and impotent and worthless. This is not because I don’t want to change the world for the better, but because I know I likely cannot change the world for the better. I know that I have good intentions and that I want to […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 10 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts
I’ve realized that I say, “what people tell me” a lot. I say this because that’s how I perceive other people’s words – they are talking at me. I receive their words, but I do not absorb them into myself. When I refer to “what people tell me”, it’s because I’m specifically speaking about an […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 09 2013 | Thoughts
I don’t even know what to do anymore. I had such a good weekend, and then Monday comes around and brings with it the same old drama. I very much dislike drama. It drives me nuts. Thus, this Monday, I am feeling the madness rising in my brain, feeling as if I might go insane, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 01 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
I belong because I do not belong. My entire life has been one long succession of exclusion, derision, and awkwardness. I have never found myself in the center of a group of people who I feel comfortable around and who are comfortable around me. There are a few reasons for this: a) I scare people […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 30 2013 | Dreams, Rant, Thoughts
Feeling troubled, I will now write about some of the things I am feeling troubled about in candid and cryptic ways. 1) I don’t know why people get so upset about word usage. Everyone uses words wrong sometimes. It’s not that big of a deal. I wonder if those people get an ego boost by […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 27 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
I’m not feeling too terribly bad today, thankfully, but I do have one very frustrating thought reiterating through my mind: “Everybody would be better off without me.” I am sick of thinking that. I know it’s not true, but I still think it all the time. So, while I listen to some Doc Watson music, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 26 2013 | Humor, Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
If you know me in real life, or even if you just know me online, you know that I love nature. I, quite literally, cannot survive in the world without some connection to nature. When I stay inside for too long, I become anxious, angry, depressed, and then overwhelmed to the point where I become […]
Continue Reading →