Friday Frustrations…
Friday is supposed to be the most relaxing day of the workweek. Not today, I’ll tell you. I am feeling so frustrated and upset and impotent, like I can’t do anything to help anyone and everything is going to implode. Why the hell is everyone so afraid of life?
Why are we so afraid of the future that we cannot live in the present?
There is so much emphasis on “being a loser” or “being a failure” or “being unattractive”… yet all of those things are subjective and based on the opinions of other people to the point that none of them are even real.
Why are we so materialistic about our self-identities? Why are we so worried about the imaginary thoughts of other people that we waste our lives trying to appease unheard and unsubstantiated judgments that we invent yet then believe? Granted, there are plenty of people out there who will try to make you feel bad… But, most people really couldn’t care less about you or your insecurities.
I’m so tired of considering other people’s fake potential thoughts. It makes absolutely no sense, and it just creates insecurity and fear. “Do they think I’m stupid? I’d better say longer words.” or “My voice must sound so monotonous, I’d better use some lingo.” or “I’m so ugly, I’ll draw attention to it so they’ll laugh with me instead of at me.”
Ugh, I’m tired of it.
You and your fake thoughts can just accept me as I am. I am no longer wasting time appeasing these false insecurities.