My outlook on life has changed greatly in the years since I decided I needed to become my true self at all costs. I no longer look to the future with dread, I no longer accept the present with a feeling of despondency, I no longer look at the past with disdain. I have grown mentally and […]
Continue Reading →I’m trying to figure out why the materialism coming from other people bothers me so much. Truly, it does feel like it is emanating from other people – a palpable aura that makes me feel uneasy and corrupted. To be sure, I do sense ‘unusual’ things from other people – it is an energy that […]
Continue Reading →I believe my oldest son has Asperger Syndrome. I also believe it’s my fault. Logically, I understand that this is a fallacy of thought. I can’t help what genetics he got from me, I didn’t even KNOW I had Asperger’s until he was eight years old. But, emotionally, I feel like I am responsible for […]
Continue Reading →Finding myself focused on and worried about money and life, I decided to write a couple of lists to remind myself what I am actively doing to take control of my life. This list has eased my mind about financial worries: What I can do to get further ahead financially: Save money each month – […]
Continue Reading →I haven’t done a Thankful Thursday post in quite some time. Honestly, I keep forgetting to. The reason I started doing thankful posts was because I was having trouble pulling myself out of negativity. It seems that I’ve evolved a bit – I have been able change to a positive perspective without having to write […]
Continue Reading →I’ve thought a lot about what it means to be human. I’ve recently had the following revelation: I can never be a “normal human” because of my brain’s formatting. There are other humans who have a similar brain build, but I don’t know how to find common ground with them. I don’t know how to find […]
Continue Reading →I have been thinking about my perspective and overall disinterest in sitcoms today. I am feeling a heightened sense of overwhelm and upset that has been brought on by imagining my life as the life of a member of a typical sitcom. I have a sick feeling in the left side of my body. I […]
Continue Reading →Some stuff I wrote out on my FB page, want to save it here for reference… Looking through various “feeds”, I note that my gut response to most popular items is apathy. I read through 100 or so responses to see if anyone can point out what actually makes the initial post so great… I […]
Continue Reading →I’m not a hopeful person. At all. I don’t expect anything good to come to my life. I have a hard time accepting compliments. I don’t believe there is anything in the world for me but what I make for myself. I have trouble understanding why people even bother with me. Truthfully, most people don’t […]
Continue Reading →I woke up this morning to find myself snuggled up to a warm, snoring child and to hear my dog, Sam, whining at my bedside. I got up and followed him to the back door and opened it to let him out. He stuck his nose out the door, then promptly turned around and trotted […]
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