I’ll admit it – I’m clueless when it comes to “romance”. I looked up “romance” and the only useful definition I could find was “a baseless, made-up story, usually full of exaggeration or fanciful invention.” So, I looked up “romantic” and found that it is “characterized by a preoccupation with love or by the idealizing of love or one’s beloved.” So, then I looked up “beloved”, which is “a person who is greatly loved” and “love” […]
Continue Reading →When I think about “changing the world”, I begin to feel despondent and impotent and worthless. This is not because I don’t want to change the world for the better, but because I know I likely cannot change the world for the better. I know that I have good intentions and that I want to […]
Continue Reading →I’ve realized that I say, “what people tell me” a lot. I say this because that’s how I perceive other people’s words – they are talking at me. I receive their words, but I do not absorb them into myself. When I refer to “what people tell me”, it’s because I’m specifically speaking about an […]
Continue Reading →I don’t even know what to do anymore. I had such a good weekend, and then Monday comes around and brings with it the same old drama. I very much dislike drama. It drives me nuts. Thus, this Monday, I am feeling the madness rising in my brain, feeling as if I might go insane, […]
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Continue Reading →I belong because I do not belong. My entire life has been one long succession of exclusion, derision, and awkwardness. I have never found myself in the center of a group of people who I feel comfortable around and who are comfortable around me. There are a few reasons for this: a) I scare people […]
Continue Reading →Feeling troubled, I will now write about some of the things I am feeling troubled about in candid and cryptic ways. 1) I don’t know why people get so upset about word usage. Everyone uses words wrong sometimes. It’s not that big of a deal. I wonder if those people get an ego boost by […]
Continue Reading →I’m not feeling too terribly bad today, thankfully, but I do have one very frustrating thought reiterating through my mind: “Everybody would be better off without me.” I am sick of thinking that. I know it’s not true, but I still think it all the time. So, while I listen to some Doc Watson music, […]
Continue Reading →If you know me in real life, or even if you just know me online, you know that I love nature. I, quite literally, cannot survive in the world without some connection to nature. When I stay inside for too long, I become anxious, angry, depressed, and then overwhelmed to the point where I become […]
Continue Reading →When I talk about “my true love”, I am talking specifically about a set of feelings I actually feel. By “my true love” I actually mean “this love that I feel that is true and deep”. I’m not speaking in a possessive term about a person, though the feelings are for a specific person. These […]
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