People keep asking me if I am “dating yet”. The short answer: No. The long answer: Nope. The extensive explanation as to why dating is not a part of my life: No, I am not and will never be “dating yet”. Truth be told, I’ve only actually been on one real date – the kind […]
Continue Reading →My brain does not work “properly” when I am feeling strong emotions. I lose the ability to speak when I am overcome with emotion. When this happens to me, I shut down. If I have any amount of control left, I sit staring stoically at nothing and any word I am able to force out […]
Continue Reading →I should be asleep. Indeed, I will need to wake up in another few hours for an hour of travel via public transportation to get to work since both of my vehicles bit the dust last week. Never mind that my only duty in life is to go to work for eight hours of every […]
Continue Reading →Awake when I shouldn’t be, I feel sad and alone. I don’t know that I feel “lonely”, per se, where I need other people’s companionship… but I feel Alone. Like there is nobody to understand me. And, the truth is, there is nobody in my life to understand me. I get so tired of living […]
Continue Reading →By the standards of the world, I am not beautiful. I’m too short, too buxom, too curvy, too zaftig, too hungry, too plain, too unmade, too spotty, to stretch-marked, too muscular, too natural, too uninterested, too hairy, too dark, and/or too modestly dressed. I will never be a size 0. I will never be taller […]
Continue Reading →To a Stranger Walt Whitman (1819-1892) Passing stranger! You do not know how longingly I look upon you, You must be he I was seeking, or she I was seeking, (it comes to me as of a dream,) I have somewhere surely lived a life of joy with you, All is recall’d as we flit […]
Continue Reading →My very dear friend Suzanne passed away yesterday (July 21, 2013) after a long battle with metastasized colon cancer. She lived well beyond the 22 months her doctors predicted back in 2009, and was even in remission for awhile. In spring 2012, the cancer returned with a vengeance: growing nodules were discovered in her liver […]
Continue Reading →I like waking up with a smile on my face. Good dreams will do that to me every time. To me, a good dream is a happy and funny dream where unexpected things happen, I say completely senseless things, understand similarly senseless things other people say, then exit the dream feeling happy and upbeat. I like […]
Continue Reading →I was born in the state of California within the United States of America. This makes my nationality US American, my ethnicity Californian, and my race Human. Not that this is acceptable by general American standards, but these are the facts. I consider myself an American because I live in the USA. I don’t feel like […]
Continue Reading →Independence: freedom from the control, influence, support, aid, or the like, of others. Do I have this? Financially, I’ve been largely independent since age 17 (well, somewhat so since age 15, but still lived at home). I think the last time I borrowed money was when I was 23, a full-time student with two children, […]
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