2017 was a long year for me. I didn’t have much to say overall, as is evidenced by my unusual lack of blog posts. It was a difficult year, full of events, failures, rejections, and encounters I’d like to put behind me. It was not all bad, though, there were shining moments of happiness and […]
Continue Reading →This year has been Rough with a capital R. I was reading the Chinese Zodiac for this year and noted that the year was supposed to be a year of dawn & awakening, triumph & success and characterized by hard work and patience. The year was supposed to hold an inner warmth, a gift of […]
Continue Reading →As I do every year, I read back over last year’s list for what I wanted to accomplish in 2016. I see that I didn’t have high hopes for the year, and with good reason – the latter half of this year made it one of the worst years of my life. (That’s saying a […]
Continue Reading →I’ve thought a lot lately about self-respect and what it means. The dictionary defines self-respect as, “pride and confidence in oneself; a feeling that one is behaving with honor and dignity.” I like that definition, I really do, but when I’m thinking of self-respect, I am thinking of it as it relates to other people. […]
Continue Reading →I’ve sorted through the tenets of my personal philosophy lately, and I’ve now established some ground rules for interpersonal relationships. In the past, I’ve just let things go how they go, with a laissez-faire attitude about forgiving & forgetting. Generally speaking, I don’t hold grudges and tend to shrug off slights directed at me because I don’t think they’re […]
Continue Reading →I am particularly glad to say goodbye to 2015. Reading through my hopes & dreams for 2015, I see that I failed miserably at making most of those things come true. 2015 was a crappy year. I have nothing else to say about it. I don’t feel the optimism and excitement I felt this same time […]
Continue Reading →I feel like my brain is covered in a creeping darkness that’s consuming my thoughts and emotions. I can’t help but think there’s something physically wrong with my brain that’s causing such a bombardment of negative thoughts and overwhelming feelings. I imagine leech-like creatures slithering around my brain, devouring normal thoughts and shitting out thoughts […]
Continue Reading →I haven’t written in a while. I haven’t been able to, really, because I don’t know what to write anymore. The past couple of months have not been amazing or wonderful. In fact, they’ve been the opposite in many ways. I was in the hospital in the middle of August with anaphylaxis – I had a severe allergic reaction […]
Continue Reading →I realized this morning that my entire life’s direction was decided by the fear of an 18-year-old me. That is a grim thought. I feel disturbed, and this causes me some amount of distress because I remember being that person. I know that all of my decisions were based on what everyone else wanted, or what I felt would be most beneficial to everyone […]
Continue Reading →I visited an Aspie forum the other day and decided to browse through the relationships section. I came across a thread entitled, “Do we have to settle?” wherein the OP suggested that anyone with an atypical brain will have to settle for an unsatisfactory life because it’s a neurotypical world. I felt somewhat strange seeing that there […]
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