By Jane Tanfei|Jan 06 2014 | Dreams, Thoughts, Writings
I remember the first time I wished upon a star. I’d watched Pinocchio for the first time after my siblings and I received it on VHS at Christmas. I was four and a half years old – sitting in the back of a minivan, settling in for an hour long ride to evening church. I […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jan 01 2014 | Rant
Ugh. I am annoyed, disgusted, and just plain irritable all around. People annoy, disgust, and irritate me. Not purposefully, mind you. It’s not like it matters what they do or whether I’m irritated. They obviously don’t care that their behavior is disgusting to me. Who am I? Nobody. Who are they? Nobody. Who do they […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 16 2013 | Curiousity, Humor, Psychology, Thoughts
I once had a guildmate in Everquest called Freerolling. He was a friendly male halfling, and took me under his wing as a fellow halfling. This may or may not have had anything to do with my shapely halfling female avatar, her irresistible Leia-like hair of bright red, gray eyes blazing with mischief, and dainty […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 13 2013 | Dreams, Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
My outlook on life has changed greatly in the years since I decided I needed to become my true self at all costs. I no longer look to the future with dread, I no longer accept the present with a feeling of despondency, I no longer look at the past with disdain. I have grown mentally and […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 10 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Technology, Thoughts
I’m trying to figure out why the materialism coming from other people bothers me so much. Truly, it does feel like it is emanating from other people – a palpable aura that makes me feel uneasy and corrupted. To be sure, I do sense ‘unusual’ things from other people – it is an energy that […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 09 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts
I believe my oldest son has Asperger Syndrome. I also believe it’s my fault. Logically, I understand that this is a fallacy of thought. I can’t help what genetics he got from me, I didn’t even KNOW I had Asperger’s until he was eight years old. But, emotionally, I feel like I am responsible for […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 18 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
I’ve thought a lot about what it means to be human. I’ve recently had the following revelation: I can never be a “normal human” because of my brain’s formatting. There are other humans who have a similar brain build, but I don’t know how to find common ground with them. I don’t know how to find […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 12 2013 | Curiousity, Thoughts
I have been thinking about my perspective and overall disinterest in sitcoms today. I am feeling a heightened sense of overwhelm and upset that has been brought on by imagining my life as the life of a member of a typical sitcom. I have a sick feeling in the left side of my body. I […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 11 2013 | Thoughts
Some stuff I wrote out on my FB page, want to save it here for reference… Looking through various “feeds”, I note that my gut response to most popular items is apathy. I read through 100 or so responses to see if anyone can point out what actually makes the initial post so great… I […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 04 2013 | Curiousity, Thoughts
I’m not a hopeful person. At all. I don’t expect anything good to come to my life. I have a hard time accepting compliments. I don’t believe there is anything in the world for me but what I make for myself. I have trouble understanding why people even bother with me. Truthfully, most people don’t […]
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