By Jane Tanfei|Nov 02 2013 | Thoughts, Writings
I woke up this morning to find myself snuggled up to a warm, snoring child and to hear my dog, Sam, whining at my bedside. I got up and followed him to the back door and opened it to let him out. He stuck his nose out the door, then promptly turned around and trotted […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 01 2013 | Thoughts
Equality – the state or quality of equivalence; correspondence in quantity, degree, value, rank, or ability. All things equal (pun intended), I think equality should stand for fairness for everybody. According to my society, I’d be wrong. I tend to interpret equality to mean that ALL people are equal. This means they are equal in […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Oct 30 2013 | Thoughts
I’m not sure what I want to write yet – I have a half-formed idea in my brain that is centered around the jumble of emotions I’m feeling. Usually, when I feel like this, I just become subdued and try to withdraw within myself so I don’t lash out at other people. At these times, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Oct 23 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
Any good day I have is, invariably, followed by a bad day. It seems that the two are paired and cannot be separated. Anytime I have a good day, I sigh and tell myself I shall make the following day pleasant – though I fully expect the next day to bear terrible fruit. I cannot […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Oct 18 2013 | Thoughts
I’ve been annoying myself lately with a lot of self-talk about how big my thighs are. It’s really irritating that I can’t escape these thoughts. For one thing, I’m normal sized for me. For another thing, there are way too many more important things I would rather be thinking about. Lastly, UGH why the crap […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Oct 11 2013 | Poetry, Thoughts, Writings
As I went about my normal day, In my typically abnormal way, I stumbled into a line of thought Within which much pain was brought. At first it was a tiny twinge, Nothing specific to retell, But then it took a hold of me And dragged my thoughts to hell… I started to remember things […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 30 2013 | Thoughts
The past week and a half have been quite unhappy for me. I’ve been teetering on the edge of an emotional precipice – trying to reconcile the hurtful words I receive with the kind words I receive. The negative words outweigh the kind words by default – it takes approximately 10 good thoughts to counter […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 27 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts, Writings
On September 19th, 2013 I walked into a neuropsychologist’s office a folder full of data and one main question: “What is wrong with me?”. An hour later, I walked out with an answer: Asperger’s Syndrome. The doctor reviewed the adult & childhood histories I’d provided, with many notes and explanations neatly denoted in the margins, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 17 2013 | Dreams, Thoughts
I’ll admit it – I’m clueless when it comes to “romance”. I looked up “romance” and the only useful definition I could find was “a baseless, made-up story, usually full of exaggeration or fanciful invention.” So, I looked up “romantic” and found that it is “characterized by a preoccupation with love or by the idealizing of love or one’s beloved.” So, then I looked up “beloved”, which is “a person who is greatly loved” and “love” […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 13 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts
When I think about “changing the world”, I begin to feel despondent and impotent and worthless. This is not because I don’t want to change the world for the better, but because I know I likely cannot change the world for the better. I know that I have good intentions and that I want to […]
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