By Jane Tanfei|Sep 10 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts
I’ve realized that I say, “what people tell me” a lot. I say this because that’s how I perceive other people’s words – they are talking at me. I receive their words, but I do not absorb them into myself. When I refer to “what people tell me”, it’s because I’m specifically speaking about an […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 01 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
I belong because I do not belong. My entire life has been one long succession of exclusion, derision, and awkwardness. I have never found myself in the center of a group of people who I feel comfortable around and who are comfortable around me. There are a few reasons for this: a) I scare people […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 30 2013 | Dreams, Rant, Thoughts
Feeling troubled, I will now write about some of the things I am feeling troubled about in candid and cryptic ways. 1) I don’t know why people get so upset about word usage. Everyone uses words wrong sometimes. It’s not that big of a deal. I wonder if those people get an ego boost by […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 26 2013 | Humor, Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
If you know me in real life, or even if you just know me online, you know that I love nature. I, quite literally, cannot survive in the world without some connection to nature. When I stay inside for too long, I become anxious, angry, depressed, and then overwhelmed to the point where I become […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 24 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
When I talk about “my true love”, I am talking specifically about a set of feelings I actually feel. By “my true love” I actually mean “this love that I feel that is true and deep”. I’m not speaking in a possessive term about a person, though the feelings are for a specific person. These […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 23 2013 | Humor, Rant, Thoughts
People keep asking me if I am “dating yet”. The short answer: No. The long answer: Nope. The extensive explanation as to why dating is not a part of my life: No, I am not and will never be “dating yet”. Truth be told, I’ve only actually been on one real date – the kind […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 22 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts
My brain does not work “properly” when I am feeling strong emotions. I lose the ability to speak when I am overcome with emotion. When this happens to me, I shut down. If I have any amount of control left, I sit staring stoically at nothing and any word I am able to force out […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 19 2013 | Dreams, Humor, Rant, Thoughts
I should be asleep. Indeed, I will need to wake up in another few hours for an hour of travel via public transportation to get to work since both of my vehicles bit the dust last week. Never mind that my only duty in life is to go to work for eight hours of every […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 11 2013 | Thoughts
Awake when I shouldn’t be, I feel sad and alone. I don’t know that I feel “lonely”, per se, where I need other people’s companionship… but I feel Alone. Like there is nobody to understand me. And, the truth is, there is nobody in my life to understand me. I get so tired of living […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jul 29 2013 | Thoughts
By the standards of the world, I am not beautiful. I’m too short, too buxom, too curvy, too zaftig, too hungry, too plain, too unmade, too spotty, to stretch-marked, too muscular, too natural, too uninterested, too hairy, too dark, and/or too modestly dressed. I will never be a size 0. I will never be taller […]
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