By Jane Tanfei|Mar 12 2015 | Thoughts
I’ve been working on my self-esteem this year. One of my goals for 2015 is to become confident. At this point in my life, I’m giving a big FU to whoever has told or will tell me I’m worthless. I realize now that people tell me that kind of thing as a type of manipulation […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jun 24 2014 | Thoughts
Feeling strange because I think I am entering a new mindset or range of understanding. Lately, I’ve been working to remove myself from intentional exposure to situations and ideas that I know I am sensitive to. I feel better and much calmer overall, but I also feel guilty about it. I kind of feel that […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Feb 24 2014 | Curiousity, Thoughts
The one thing I don’t like about my life is that is intermittently, against my will, chaotic. I get stuck in ideas sometimes – trying to figure out the point of these situations. I know, intuitively, that there is a reason for those experiences, but I have a hard time just accepting that the “ah-ha moment” […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 13 2013 | Dreams, Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
My outlook on life has changed greatly in the years since I decided I needed to become my true self at all costs. I no longer look to the future with dread, I no longer accept the present with a feeling of despondency, I no longer look at the past with disdain. I have grown mentally and […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 10 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Technology, Thoughts
I’m trying to figure out why the materialism coming from other people bothers me so much. Truly, it does feel like it is emanating from other people – a palpable aura that makes me feel uneasy and corrupted. To be sure, I do sense ‘unusual’ things from other people – it is an energy that […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 12 2013 | Curiousity, Thoughts
I have been thinking about my perspective and overall disinterest in sitcoms today. I am feeling a heightened sense of overwhelm and upset that has been brought on by imagining my life as the life of a member of a typical sitcom. I have a sick feeling in the left side of my body. I […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 11 2013 | Thoughts
Some stuff I wrote out on my FB page, want to save it here for reference… Looking through various “feeds”, I note that my gut response to most popular items is apathy. I read through 100 or so responses to see if anyone can point out what actually makes the initial post so great… I […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 04 2013 | Curiousity, Thoughts
I’m not a hopeful person. At all. I don’t expect anything good to come to my life. I have a hard time accepting compliments. I don’t believe there is anything in the world for me but what I make for myself. I have trouble understanding why people even bother with me. Truthfully, most people don’t […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Oct 23 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
Any good day I have is, invariably, followed by a bad day. It seems that the two are paired and cannot be separated. Anytime I have a good day, I sigh and tell myself I shall make the following day pleasant – though I fully expect the next day to bear terrible fruit. I cannot […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 22 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts
My brain does not work “properly” when I am feeling strong emotions. I lose the ability to speak when I am overcome with emotion. When this happens to me, I shut down. If I have any amount of control left, I sit staring stoically at nothing and any word I am able to force out […]
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