By Jane Tanfei|Aug 11 2013 | Thoughts
Awake when I shouldn’t be, I feel sad and alone. I don’t know that I feel “lonely”, per se, where I need other people’s companionship… but I feel Alone. Like there is nobody to understand me. And, the truth is, there is nobody in my life to understand me. I get so tired of living […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jul 02 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
Why do I worry about other people? Why am I bothered and/or emotionally invested in the imaginary thoughts/actions of other people? Why am I stuck in the circular mindset of “why”? I’ll admit I think too much and too deeply. I feel out of place with people because I think about things that have no […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jul 01 2013 | Psychology, Star Trek, Thoughts
I feel love. It cuts me very deeply and leaves me open and raw and feeling bereaved, yet also feeling soft and warm and comforted because that love is beautiful even as it is painful. Additionally, that love causes distress because I fluctuate between feeling tough and feeling tender. I do not allow myself vulnerability, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jun 04 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
Intuition, as defined by dictionaries, is the ‘power’ or ‘ability’ to gain knowledge and understanding instinctively – without evidence of conscious reasoning, thought, or the mind’s interference. Since we know dictionaries are emotionless and unbiased, we must contend that this is the proper definition for these feelings we feel which cannot be easily expressed in words. […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jan 14 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Rant, Thoughts
Fate (and its supporting quotes) has always caused me significant turmoil and many a sleepless night. Why is it that “Everything happens for a reason”, even though I can’t see a reason other than for me to suffer? How is it that “Whatever happened happened because it was supposed to” when I am still hurting […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 29 2012 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Rant, Thoughts
I am thinking about the term “Narcissist” and how it applies to me. Apparently, I am a “Narcissist”. Or, so I’ve been told by persons who (I believe) are using the term as a way to categorize my need for independence, dissatisfaction with just “settling”, and drive to do more and be more in my […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 09 2012 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
Today is one of those days where I was driving (not speeding, folks, not speeding :D) along toward work and I thought, “Am I present? Am I focused on what I have and what I am doing rather than what I don’t have or what I have to do?” To be honest, I don’t know […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jul 11 2012 | Rant, Thoughts
On my mind this morning: religious prejudice. Yesterday I got into a debate with a set of ultra-religious folks about gender identity. The debate started out with a question about thoughts on a child who identifies as the opposite gender from a very young age and then wants gender reassignment surgery around the time of […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jul 09 2012 | Thoughts
There is an area in the center of my brain, specifically the frontal lobe, that feels strange. I can feel it processing, but whatever it’s processing is fuzzy to me. I can’t figure out what I am puzzling over. I feel confused and I feel disconcerted. I feel this fuzzy feeling in the very front […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jun 29 2012 | Curiousity, Rant, Thoughts
I have no idea what to write about today. I’m working on several large projects right now, and my mind is having a hard time switching from programming to writing. So, yesterday, I had a very brief Twitter conversation with Scott Mueller (@HandKnitWebs). He had tweeted the link to a Lorem Ipsum (latin filler text […]
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