By Jane Tanfei|Jul 18 2021 | Thoughts
I am acutely aware of the passage of time because that’s how my brain works. During times of heightened stress, it becomes unbearable because I can see each thing that bothers me, see that it is unchanging, and see that I cannot trust my efforts to bring actual positive change to my future life. This […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Mar 27 2014 | Thoughts
I have a very hard time trying to understand the point of enduring constant struggle in life. I feel like I am struggling just to keep my head above water – always on the brink of drowning, always trying to find that last bit of strength, so tired that I am always yearning to let myself […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Feb 13 2014 | Thoughts
In a mood of despondency, feeling a wailing and hopeless sense of despair, I decided to write down what I would need and want from a partner – if I were ever lucky enough to find one. The despair comes from the reality that there are some things about me that point to the idea […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 06 2013 | Thoughts, Writings
Finding myself focused on and worried about money and life, I decided to write a couple of lists to remind myself what I am actively doing to take control of my life. This list has eased my mind about financial worries: What I can do to get further ahead financially: Save money each month – […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jul 17 2013 | Dreams, Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
I like waking up with a smile on my face. Good dreams will do that to me every time. To me, a good dream is a happy and funny dream where unexpected things happen, I say completely senseless things, understand similarly senseless things other people say, then exit the dream feeling happy and upbeat. I like […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|May 15 2013 | Dreams, Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
I have always longed for simplicity. I am happiest when outside surrounded by plants and animals, plodding along at my own speed. There are no appointments, no deadlines, there is no rush – problems are solved by ingenuity, not income. I am, in truth, a very simple person. So much of the world is excess […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Mar 31 2013 | Dreams, Thoughts
I am awake early this morning, the last morning of my vacation, feeling overtired yet restless. I am in dire need of sleep, but cannot go back to sleep. I feel an acute and overpowering sadness. I wake up in the middle of the night sometimes, needing to say things. But, there is nobody to […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 02 2012 | Curiousity, Dreams, Metaphysical Discussion, Shameless Self-Promotion, Thoughts
Today, I am feeling optimistic. I am feeling uplifted, I am feeling hopeful, and I have a light heart. I had a dream last night that I was part of a large group of adopted kids who were being treated like slaves by our “mother”. One of my brothers was a huge black dragon called […]
Continue Reading →