By Jane Tanfei|Oct 23 2017 | Thoughts
This year has been Rough with a capital R. I was reading the Chinese Zodiac for this year and noted that the year was supposed to be a year of dawn & awakening, triumph & success and characterized by hard work and patience. The year was supposed to hold an inner warmth, a gift of […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Feb 18 2016 | Thoughts
I’ve sorted through the tenets of my personal philosophy lately, and I’ve now established some ground rules for interpersonal relationships. In the past, I’ve just let things go how they go, with a laissez-faire attitude about forgiving & forgetting. Generally speaking, I don’t hold grudges and tend to shrug off slights directed at me because I don’t think they’re […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Mar 02 2015 | Dreams, Thoughts
I had a particularly curious dream last night. It wasn’t traumatic or violent or upsetting, just curious. The main thing that stood out to me was that it was so real. I remember my thoughts during the dream, I remember my emotions, and I remember my physical reactions to the environment. I can’t really tell […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Feb 12 2015 | Thoughts
I often feel out of sync with the world – as if time exists, but I am moving at a different speed. I look around, and everything looks strange to me. Lights seem too bright and too artificial, my body feels strange to me, words and laughter sound foreign, and people’s behavior takes on an […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jan 08 2015 | Thankful Thursday, Thoughts
Try as I might, I can’t seem to share the world with other people. I don’t seem to experience things with other people. I try to be present, but my thoughts and feelings constantly create a barrier between myself and the people around me. Mostly, people just assume I’m “stuck-up” or “think I’m better than […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Mar 06 2014 | Psychology, Thoughts
Sometimes, I feel despair because I think about how my emotions are pointless and useless – they are good for nothing besides causing me pain. I was thinking about how I’m always out of sync – feeling happy things when socially I “should” feel bad, or seeing negativity where others only see positive things. Most […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Feb 27 2014 | Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
Sometimes, I go out and play live music. On one such recent occasion, I had a pretty good time, and then I suddenly started to feel very alone. I felt really empty and isolated, despite the fact that there were kind people around and it had been a joyful evening. The strangest part is that […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Feb 10 2014 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
There is a set of ideas floating around my head – a qualitative and definitive understanding relative to my current emotions and thoughts and evoked by recent events in my life. The main tenets of this soon-to-be formulated understanding of my world: 1) Fear is irrelevant. 2) Money is irrelevant. 3) Intuition is key. 4) […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jan 06 2014 | Dreams, Thoughts, Writings
I remember the first time I wished upon a star. I’d watched Pinocchio for the first time after my siblings and I received it on VHS at Christmas. I was four and a half years old – sitting in the back of a minivan, settling in for an hour long ride to evening church. I […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 01 2013 | Thoughts
Equality – the state or quality of equivalence; correspondence in quantity, degree, value, rank, or ability. All things equal (pun intended), I think equality should stand for fairness for everybody. According to my society, I’d be wrong. I tend to interpret equality to mean that ALL people are equal. This means they are equal in […]
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