By Jane Tanfei|Mar 11 2025 | Poetry|Share a thought...
I dreamed of the you I’ve never met,Face to face,I traced your fine lines,I memorized this version of you,I smiled. When I woke up, I knew it was you,But how could I know,Unless some version of us survived? It’s the only comfort,That somewhere, We were able to speak,We were able to grow,We figured it out. […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jun 02 2019 | Thoughts
I haven’t been able to write publicly for a few years. Things have been difficult, to say the least. It’s been a constant struggle, to the point where I keep slogging forward simply because that’s the only direction to go. There have been so many truly bad things in the past few years that I […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 04 2015 | Thoughts
I realized this morning that my entire life’s direction was decided by the fear of an 18-year-old me. That is a grim thought. I feel disturbed, and this causes me some amount of distress because I remember being that person. I know that all of my decisions were based on what everyone else wanted, or what I felt would be most beneficial to everyone […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|May 13 2014 | Thoughts
I’ve realized that I feel some level anxiety every single day. What I also realized is that the source for this is, most often, based in thoughts of social propriety. As a person who no longer wishes to be socially propitious, this bothers me greatly. Happily, each day’s anxiety is a little easier to manage and […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|May 02 2014 | Thoughts
There’s very little that gives me a feeling of dread anymore, and that is a good thing. Unfortunately, there is one specific topic that pretty much ONLY gives me dread: dating. People keep trying to goad or talk me into going on dates, or “just think about it”. I don’t want to. Leave me alone […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Feb 27 2014 | Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
Sometimes, I go out and play live music. On one such recent occasion, I had a pretty good time, and then I suddenly started to feel very alone. I felt really empty and isolated, despite the fact that there were kind people around and it had been a joyful evening. The strangest part is that […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jan 20 2014 | Thoughts, Writings
So, this morning I am thinking about humans and our need to judge others by our own fickle standards. I was already kind of thinking about this as I did my morning trudge; I’d been considering the frustration I feel at the automatic mental comparisons I do every day. Not because I want to, but […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 10 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Technology, Thoughts
I’m trying to figure out why the materialism coming from other people bothers me so much. Truly, it does feel like it is emanating from other people – a palpable aura that makes me feel uneasy and corrupted. To be sure, I do sense ‘unusual’ things from other people – it is an energy that […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 18 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
I’ve thought a lot about what it means to be human. I’ve recently had the following revelation: I can never be a “normal human” because of my brain’s formatting. There are other humans who have a similar brain build, but I don’t know how to find common ground with them. I don’t know how to find […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 12 2013 | Curiousity, Thoughts
I have been thinking about my perspective and overall disinterest in sitcoms today. I am feeling a heightened sense of overwhelm and upset that has been brought on by imagining my life as the life of a member of a typical sitcom. I have a sick feeling in the left side of my body. I […]
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