By Jane Tanfei|Dec 10 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Technology, Thoughts
I’m trying to figure out why the materialism coming from other people bothers me so much. Truly, it does feel like it is emanating from other people – a palpable aura that makes me feel uneasy and corrupted. To be sure, I do sense ‘unusual’ things from other people – it is an energy that […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 09 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts
I believe my oldest son has Asperger Syndrome. I also believe it’s my fault. Logically, I understand that this is a fallacy of thought. I can’t help what genetics he got from me, I didn’t even KNOW I had Asperger’s until he was eight years old. But, emotionally, I feel like I am responsible for […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 06 2013 | Thoughts, Writings
Finding myself focused on and worried about money and life, I decided to write a couple of lists to remind myself what I am actively doing to take control of my life. This list has eased my mind about financial worries: What I can do to get further ahead financially: Save money each month – […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 04 2013 | Curiousity, Thoughts
I’m not a hopeful person. At all. I don’t expect anything good to come to my life. I have a hard time accepting compliments. I don’t believe there is anything in the world for me but what I make for myself. I have trouble understanding why people even bother with me. Truthfully, most people don’t […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 02 2013 | Thoughts, Writings
I woke up this morning to find myself snuggled up to a warm, snoring child and to hear my dog, Sam, whining at my bedside. I got up and followed him to the back door and opened it to let him out. He stuck his nose out the door, then promptly turned around and trotted […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 01 2013 | Thoughts
Equality – the state or quality of equivalence; correspondence in quantity, degree, value, rank, or ability. All things equal (pun intended), I think equality should stand for fairness for everybody. According to my society, I’d be wrong. I tend to interpret equality to mean that ALL people are equal. This means they are equal in […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Oct 16 2013 | Nerdcore, Psychology, Thoughts
I think one of the strangest things about me is that I genuinely feel love for everyone. Everyone. I feel empathy, caring, and love for every human on the planet. Even (sometimes especially) those who have expressed their hatred toward me. Now, I definitely see how this may seem contradictory, or like a waste of […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 30 2013 | Thoughts
The past week and a half have been quite unhappy for me. I’ve been teetering on the edge of an emotional precipice – trying to reconcile the hurtful words I receive with the kind words I receive. The negative words outweigh the kind words by default – it takes approximately 10 good thoughts to counter […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 17 2013 | Dreams, Thoughts
I’ll admit it – I’m clueless when it comes to “romance”. I looked up “romance” and the only useful definition I could find was “a baseless, made-up story, usually full of exaggeration or fanciful invention.” So, I looked up “romantic” and found that it is “characterized by a preoccupation with love or by the idealizing of love or one’s beloved.” So, then I looked up “beloved”, which is “a person who is greatly loved” and “love” […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 13 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts
When I think about “changing the world”, I begin to feel despondent and impotent and worthless. This is not because I don’t want to change the world for the better, but because I know I likely cannot change the world for the better. I know that I have good intentions and that I want to […]
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