By Jane Tanfei|Jun 06 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts, Writings
Sorrow, Confusion, Joy – Recovery. And so, dear reader, you have entered my life while I am in a continuous state of recovery. I call this a recovery because it is a daily struggle not to slip into those old behaviors. I must always be mindful of my thoughts and my words to avoid self-hate […]
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“If you’re happy, we’re happy.” – Codependency. They say the road to hell is paved with good intentions. I don’t know if I believe in hell, but I do know that I am surely going there if it exists. Codependence is described as excessive attachment and need for approval from others as a condition for one’s […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jun 06 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts, Writings
Hapless, Helpless, Hopeless, Worthless – Battered Person Syndrome. Battered Person Syndrome is, essentially, when an abused person believes that s/he deserves and/or is responsible for any abuse that happens to him/her. I have always believed that I am responsible for abuse I have endured, that it’s my fault because I am a piece of crap, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jun 06 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts, Writings
Secrets, Fear, Lies – Dysfunctional Family Life. My life as a child was not at all happy. In fact, I can’t actually remember any happiness on my part. All potentially happy experiences were subdued because I was always expecting something bad to happen. I remember feeling no joy or excitement about things like birthdays or […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jun 05 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts, Writings
I have spent a lot of time trying to figure out “What is wrong with me?” and “How could I have done the things I’ve done?” Essentially, I’ve been obsessed with trying to understand the reasons I have been the way I have been and acted the way I’ve acted. In my search for answers, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|May 23 2013 | Thankful Thursday, Thoughts
This day did not start out well. One of those day, as they say. But, I’m making it better, I’ve caught myself and was able to mend my mood before I got upset. It’s strange that I can have a great day and then wake up the next morning completely hopeless and despairing. It is […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Apr 30 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts, Writings
Today, I can feel myself changing. There are certain things that I have thought about today that do not bother me as much as they would have bothered me even a few weeks ago. This morning, I thought, “Maybe I’ve finally grown up.” But, I don’t even know what “grown up” means… I will never […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 29 2012 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Rant, Thoughts
I am thinking about the term “Narcissist” and how it applies to me. Apparently, I am a “Narcissist”. Or, so I’ve been told by persons who (I believe) are using the term as a way to categorize my need for independence, dissatisfaction with just “settling”, and drive to do more and be more in my […]
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