By Jane Tanfei|May 02 2014 | Thoughts
There’s very little that gives me a feeling of dread anymore, and that is a good thing. Unfortunately, there is one specific topic that pretty much ONLY gives me dread: dating. People keep trying to goad or talk me into going on dates, or “just think about it”. I don’t want to. Leave me alone […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Feb 27 2014 | Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
Sometimes, I go out and play live music. On one such recent occasion, I had a pretty good time, and then I suddenly started to feel very alone. I felt really empty and isolated, despite the fact that there were kind people around and it had been a joyful evening. The strangest part is that […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jan 06 2014 | Dreams, Thoughts, Writings
I remember the first time I wished upon a star. I’d watched Pinocchio for the first time after my siblings and I received it on VHS at Christmas. I was four and a half years old – sitting in the back of a minivan, settling in for an hour long ride to evening church. I […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 26 2013 | Humor, Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
If you know me in real life, or even if you just know me online, you know that I love nature. I, quite literally, cannot survive in the world without some connection to nature. When I stay inside for too long, I become anxious, angry, depressed, and then overwhelmed to the point where I become […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jul 13 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
Independence: freedom from the control, influence, support, aid, or the like, of others. Do I have this? Financially, I’ve been largely independent since age 17 (well, somewhat so since age 15, but still lived at home). I think the last time I borrowed money was when I was 23, a full-time student with two children, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|May 09 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts, Writings
I am feeling confused today, though about what I am uncertain. The feeling in my head is a jumbled feeling, as if there is something I am upset about and something I’m not upset about that are warring in my mind. But, I do not have any feelings of upset in my heart. I am longing for the […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Apr 30 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts, Writings
Today, I can feel myself changing. There are certain things that I have thought about today that do not bother me as much as they would have bothered me even a few weeks ago. This morning, I thought, “Maybe I’ve finally grown up.” But, I don’t even know what “grown up” means… I will never […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jan 14 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Rant, Thoughts
Fate (and its supporting quotes) has always caused me significant turmoil and many a sleepless night. Why is it that “Everything happens for a reason”, even though I can’t see a reason other than for me to suffer? How is it that “Whatever happened happened because it was supposed to” when I am still hurting […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 03 2012 | Humor, Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts, Writings
Today started out as ‘one of those days’. I woke up late, stubbed my toes in the dark, couldn’t find any clean clothes to wear, fell down the stairs wearing only my underclothes, dropped a box of unwashed vegetables from my garden all over the ground, stepped on the one rotten potato in the box […]
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