By Jane Tanfei|Aug 27 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
I’m not feeling too terribly bad today, thankfully, but I do have one very frustrating thought reiterating through my mind: “Everybody would be better off without me.” I am sick of thinking that. I know it’s not true, but I still think it all the time. So, while I listen to some Doc Watson music, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jun 06 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts, Writings
Sorrow, Confusion, Joy – Recovery. And so, dear reader, you have entered my life while I am in a continuous state of recovery. I call this a recovery because it is a daily struggle not to slip into those old behaviors. I must always be mindful of my thoughts and my words to avoid self-hate […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jun 06 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts, Writings
“If you’re happy, we’re happy.” – Codependency. They say the road to hell is paved with good intentions. I don’t know if I believe in hell, but I do know that I am surely going there if it exists. Codependence is described as excessive attachment and need for approval from others as a condition for one’s […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jun 06 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts, Writings
Hapless, Helpless, Hopeless, Worthless – Battered Person Syndrome. Battered Person Syndrome is, essentially, when an abused person believes that s/he deserves and/or is responsible for any abuse that happens to him/her. I have always believed that I am responsible for abuse I have endured, that it’s my fault because I am a piece of crap, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jun 06 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts, Writings
Secrets, Fear, Lies – Dysfunctional Family Life. My life as a child was not at all happy. In fact, I can’t actually remember any happiness on my part. All potentially happy experiences were subdued because I was always expecting something bad to happen. I remember feeling no joy or excitement about things like birthdays or […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jun 05 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts, Writings
I have spent a lot of time trying to figure out “What is wrong with me?” and “How could I have done the things I’ve done?” Essentially, I’ve been obsessed with trying to understand the reasons I have been the way I have been and acted the way I’ve acted. In my search for answers, […]
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