By Jane Tanfei|May 02 2014 | Thoughts
There’s very little that gives me a feeling of dread anymore, and that is a good thing. Unfortunately, there is one specific topic that pretty much ONLY gives me dread: dating. People keep trying to goad or talk me into going on dates, or “just think about it”. I don’t want to. Leave me alone […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Feb 13 2014 | Thoughts
In a mood of despondency, feeling a wailing and hopeless sense of despair, I decided to write down what I would need and want from a partner – if I were ever lucky enough to find one. The despair comes from the reality that there are some things about me that point to the idea […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jan 15 2014 | Curiousity, Humor, Psychology, Thoughts
So, I’ve been preoccupied lately with trying to figure out exactly what people get out of romantic relationships. Basically, this consists of watching the interactions of couples, and taking mental notes about types of relationships vs. the body language and demeanor of the subjects. Maybe that sounds bizarre, but that’s how it really is for […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jan 06 2014 | Dreams, Thoughts, Writings
I remember the first time I wished upon a star. I’d watched Pinocchio for the first time after my siblings and I received it on VHS at Christmas. I was four and a half years old – sitting in the back of a minivan, settling in for an hour long ride to evening church. I […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 10 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Technology, Thoughts
I’m trying to figure out why the materialism coming from other people bothers me so much. Truly, it does feel like it is emanating from other people – a palpable aura that makes me feel uneasy and corrupted. To be sure, I do sense ‘unusual’ things from other people – it is an energy that […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 04 2013 | Curiousity, Thoughts
I’m not a hopeful person. At all. I don’t expect anything good to come to my life. I have a hard time accepting compliments. I don’t believe there is anything in the world for me but what I make for myself. I have trouble understanding why people even bother with me. Truthfully, most people don’t […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 17 2013 | Dreams, Thoughts
I’ll admit it – I’m clueless when it comes to “romance”. I looked up “romance” and the only useful definition I could find was “a baseless, made-up story, usually full of exaggeration or fanciful invention.” So, I looked up “romantic” and found that it is “characterized by a preoccupation with love or by the idealizing of love or one’s beloved.” So, then I looked up “beloved”, which is “a person who is greatly loved” and “love” […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 24 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
When I talk about “my true love”, I am talking specifically about a set of feelings I actually feel. By “my true love” I actually mean “this love that I feel that is true and deep”. I’m not speaking in a possessive term about a person, though the feelings are for a specific person. These […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 23 2013 | Humor, Rant, Thoughts
People keep asking me if I am “dating yet”. The short answer: No. The long answer: Nope. The extensive explanation as to why dating is not a part of my life: No, I am not and will never be “dating yet”. Truth be told, I’ve only actually been on one real date – the kind […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jul 29 2013 | Thoughts
By the standards of the world, I am not beautiful. I’m too short, too buxom, too curvy, too zaftig, too hungry, too plain, too unmade, too spotty, to stretch-marked, too muscular, too natural, too uninterested, too hairy, too dark, and/or too modestly dressed. I will never be a size 0. I will never be taller […]
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