By Jane Tanfei|Mar 11 2025 | Poetry|Share a thought...
I dreamed of the you I’ve never met,Face to face,I traced your fine lines,I memorized this version of you,I smiled. When I woke up, I knew it was you,But how could I know,Unless some version of us survived? It’s the only comfort,That somewhere, We were able to speak,We were able to grow,We figured it out. […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jun 12 2014 | Thoughts
I get upset when I see, read, or hear objectification of humans. I know that this comes from being treated as an object in my youth, knowing I was worth nothing more than what my body could provide for other people’s pleasure. I feel an immense sadness and some heartache when I encounter anything that has to […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Mar 03 2014 | Psychology, Thoughts
Over the past week, I’ve had two more encounters to practice my “walk away from rude people” skills with. It is not easy. I’m trying to stick by the idea: they start insults, I walk away. On the second encounter (multiple people, typical mob mentality), I was talking to one person when a second person […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Dec 13 2013 | Dreams, Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
My outlook on life has changed greatly in the years since I decided I needed to become my true self at all costs. I no longer look to the future with dread, I no longer accept the present with a feeling of despondency, I no longer look at the past with disdain. I have grown mentally and […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Oct 11 2013 | Poetry, Thoughts, Writings
As I went about my normal day, In my typically abnormal way, I stumbled into a line of thought Within which much pain was brought. At first it was a tiny twinge, Nothing specific to retell, But then it took a hold of me And dragged my thoughts to hell… I started to remember things […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 27 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
I’m not feeling too terribly bad today, thankfully, but I do have one very frustrating thought reiterating through my mind: “Everybody would be better off without me.” I am sick of thinking that. I know it’s not true, but I still think it all the time. So, while I listen to some Doc Watson music, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 11 2013 | Thoughts
Awake when I shouldn’t be, I feel sad and alone. I don’t know that I feel “lonely”, per se, where I need other people’s companionship… but I feel Alone. Like there is nobody to understand me. And, the truth is, there is nobody in my life to understand me. I get so tired of living […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jul 15 2013 | Rant, Thoughts, Writings
I was born in the state of California within the United States of America. This makes my nationality US American, my ethnicity Californian, and my race Human. Not that this is acceptable by general American standards, but these are the facts. I consider myself an American because I live in the USA. I don’t feel like […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jul 12 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
Just when I think I’ve finally learned to cope with my unyielding sadness in a healthy and permanent way, BAM it jumps on me from behind and drags me – kicking and screaming – to its dank, dark underground cave, cocoons me in webbing and hangs me from the ceiling to be eaten for lunch… Despite my […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jul 01 2013 | Psychology, Star Trek, Thoughts
I feel love. It cuts me very deeply and leaves me open and raw and feeling bereaved, yet also feeling soft and warm and comforted because that love is beautiful even as it is painful. Additionally, that love causes distress because I fluctuate between feeling tough and feeling tender. I do not allow myself vulnerability, […]
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