By Jane Tanfei|Jun 17 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
I wonder what it would be like to feel attachment to people, places, things? One of the strangest things about me is that I have very little attachment to anyone or anyplace or anything. Internally, when I feel myself begin to get too attached to someone or something, I automatically shut off those feelings because […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|May 31 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Rant, Thoughts
I once received a detailed zodiac horoscope describing my personality based on details of my birth. There was much info about the affects of the sun and planets on my lifespan that made no sense to me, but the personality attributes were fairly accurate. The number one attribute? You envy those around you who live […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|May 16 2013 | Poetry, Thoughts, Writings
There was a button in my pocket. I touched it just to see If this button was a button That might help me. I left it there awhile, I even forgot. I put my hand in my pocket, Smiled at what my fingers sought. I pulled the button out, Studied it with intent. I don’t […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|May 16 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
I am shutting down. I can feel it. I feel so disconnected. I feel my heart hardening again, becoming that jaded and cynical observer who exists but does not live. I don’t want to go back to that, but I am slipping back there. I am becoming stagnant because there is nothing else to do. […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|May 06 2013 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
I am feeling very thankful that I am alive. This morning, I read about a very sad situation – a young couple in love, separated by death. They met, they fell in love, they were happy together. The young woman, though, was stricken with an incurable disease. The young man, knowing his beloved would soon […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Apr 26 2013 | Music, Thoughts, Video
These Days ~ Nico – It is one of these days. These Days by Nico I’ve been out walking I don’t do too much talking These days, these days. These days I seem to think a lot About the things that I forgot to do And all the times I had the chance to. I’ve […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Apr 25 2013 | Curiousity, Rant, Thoughts
I’ve thought a lot about shame, and the things that we do to avoid exposing our shame to the world. We lie, we trick, we cheat, we hurt others, we hate, we steal, we murder, we suicide to hide our shame. As if these bad things we do to hide our shame can ever overshadow […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Apr 22 2013 | Curiousity, Rant, Thoughts
I’m in a truly bad mood right now. I hardly ever say what I honestly feel like saying because my true thoughts tend to be blunt and everyone is so easily offended these days that the truth is no longer considered “a good thing”. But I feel like saying what I feel so I’m going […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Apr 04 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thankful Thursday, Thoughts
I am having a very difficult time today with overwhelming emotions. I feel like a disappointment to my family, I feel like I am living a pointless life, and I feel completely hopeless that I will ever be what I’m “supposed to be”. I don’t even know what I am supposed to be, other than […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Apr 03 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
I am a Melancholic. This is my nature – to be wistful, sorrowful, morose. It is not on purpose. I do not intentionally make myself sad. It just IS. I have been this way as long as I can remember… Even as a young child, I would greet the day not with a smile, but […]
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