As I do every year, I read back over last year’s list for what I wanted to accomplish in 2016. I see that I didn’t have high hopes for the year, and with good reason – the latter half of this year made it one of the worst years of my life. (That’s saying a […]
Continue Reading →I’ve thought a lot lately about self-respect and what it means. The dictionary defines self-respect as, “pride and confidence in oneself; a feeling that one is behaving with honor and dignity.” I like that definition, I really do, but when I’m thinking of self-respect, I am thinking of it as it relates to other people. […]
Continue Reading →My thoughts today are hectic and full of pervasive anxiety. I wish there was a switch I could flip to turn myself into someone else. I wish I could be something, anything, else. I guess I’m acutely feeling all the things that are “wrong” with me – people keep pointing out the things they don’t like about me […]
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I’ve decided to restart Thankful Thursday posts. I haven’t done one in a long time, but it’s time to work on refocusing my brain again. I went and read a post from two years ago and realized that I still need to do this activity. Today, I am thankful that my feelings are not as dire as […]
Continue Reading →I’m not big on making resolutions. Realistically, this is because I can’t control anything other than what I do TODAY. Truthfully, I can’t control anything other than what I do THIS VERY SECOND. So, I don’t like making resolutions, because I know I’ll fail in at least a few of them simply because I can’t […]
Continue Reading →I think one of the strangest things about me is that I genuinely feel love for everyone. Everyone. I feel empathy, caring, and love for every human on the planet. Even (sometimes especially) those who have expressed their hatred toward me. Now, I definitely see how this may seem contradictory, or like a waste of […]
Continue Reading →On September 19th, 2013 I walked into a neuropsychologist’s office a folder full of data and one main question: “What is wrong with me?”. An hour later, I walked out with an answer: Asperger’s Syndrome. The doctor reviewed the adult & childhood histories I’d provided, with many notes and explanations neatly denoted in the margins, […]
Continue Reading →I haven’t done a Thankful Thursday post in a long time, but felt like I should write one today. As you probably don’t know, I keep a handwritten journal – in addition to this blog – because I really do have a lot in my head that comes out at weird times. So, yesterday, I […]
Continue Reading →I wonder what it would be like to feel attachment to people, places, things? One of the strangest things about me is that I have very little attachment to anyone or anyplace or anything. Internally, when I feel myself begin to get too attached to someone or something, I automatically shut off those feelings because […]
Continue Reading →Intuition, as defined by dictionaries, is the ‘power’ or ‘ability’ to gain knowledge and understanding instinctively – without evidence of conscious reasoning, thought, or the mind’s interference. Since we know dictionaries are emotionless and unbiased, we must contend that this is the proper definition for these feelings we feel which cannot be easily expressed in words. […]
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