By Jane Tanfei|Mar 12 2015 | Thoughts
I’ve been working on my self-esteem this year. One of my goals for 2015 is to become confident. At this point in my life, I’m giving a big FU to whoever has told or will tell me I’m worthless. I realize now that people tell me that kind of thing as a type of manipulation […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Mar 27 2014 | Thoughts
I have a very hard time trying to understand the point of enduring constant struggle in life. I feel like I am struggling just to keep my head above water – always on the brink of drowning, always trying to find that last bit of strength, so tired that I am always yearning to let myself […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 27 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts, Writings
On September 19th, 2013 I walked into a neuropsychologist’s office a folder full of data and one main question: “What is wrong with me?”. An hour later, I walked out with an answer: Asperger’s Syndrome. The doctor reviewed the adult & childhood histories I’d provided, with many notes and explanations neatly denoted in the margins, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 17 2013 | Dreams, Thoughts
I’ll admit it – I’m clueless when it comes to “romance”. I looked up “romance” and the only useful definition I could find was “a baseless, made-up story, usually full of exaggeration or fanciful invention.” So, I looked up “romantic” and found that it is “characterized by a preoccupation with love or by the idealizing of love or one’s beloved.” So, then I looked up “beloved”, which is “a person who is greatly loved” and “love” […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jul 29 2013 | Thoughts
By the standards of the world, I am not beautiful. I’m too short, too buxom, too curvy, too zaftig, too hungry, too plain, too unmade, too spotty, to stretch-marked, too muscular, too natural, too uninterested, too hairy, too dark, and/or too modestly dressed. I will never be a size 0. I will never be taller […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Apr 26 2013 | Thoughts
One thing I have always been ashamed of is my appearance. I happen to have medium brown skin, dark curly hair, and brown eyes. I’ve been called “dog ugly” as many times as I’ve been called “beautiful”, so I doubt I’m either – probably just a plain Jane. It doesn’t really matter either way. What […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 31 2012 | Curiousity, Rant, Thoughts, Writings
All right, folks, I wasn’t going to write anything about this “race” stuff anytime soon, but there have been several conversations in the past couple of weeks that have struck a chord with me. I’ve had to explain my position thoroughly and clearly multiple times. I had decided it was just a coincidence and there […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 08 2012 | Metaphysical Discussion, Rant, Thoughts
The thing that is bothering me today is the sexualization of females. It is disheartening, disturbing, and disgusting to me. I look at female musicians and a large majority of them choose to post images of themselves scantily-clad, in provocative and suggestive poses, with “come hither” looks on their faces. It’s so frustrating. I understand […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jul 06 2012 | Rant, Thoughts
I can’t tell if I am confident or not. I looked up “confidence” in the dictionary to see if it would help me to discern my feelings. Confidence is belief in oneself and one’s powers or abilities, assurance of and full trust in oneself. Okay, so I’m going to go over this to find out whether […]
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