By Jane Tanfei|Mar 06 2014 | Psychology, Thoughts
I am flip-flopping – still – on if I want to share this information. It is painful to me, but I need to get it outside of myself because I need to reflect upon it from an external viewpoint. For the past couple of weeks, I’ve tried to solve a problem in my mind – how […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Mar 06 2014 | Psychology, Thoughts
Sometimes, I feel despair because I think about how my emotions are pointless and useless – they are good for nothing besides causing me pain. I was thinking about how I’m always out of sync – feeling happy things when socially I “should” feel bad, or seeing negativity where others only see positive things. Most […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Feb 27 2014 | Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
Sometimes, I go out and play live music. On one such recent occasion, I had a pretty good time, and then I suddenly started to feel very alone. I felt really empty and isolated, despite the fact that there were kind people around and it had been a joyful evening. The strangest part is that […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Feb 24 2014 | Psychology, Thoughts
I just realized what I have learned about myself in the past few days: I don’t want to be detached anymore. It’s strange to think that, but I recognize now that I usually am detached because it is a way to protect myself from emotional upset. I think now that I understand the reality that […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Feb 24 2014 | Curiousity, Thoughts
The one thing I don’t like about my life is that is intermittently, against my will, chaotic. I get stuck in ideas sometimes – trying to figure out the point of these situations. I know, intuitively, that there is a reason for those experiences, but I have a hard time just accepting that the “ah-ha moment” […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Feb 19 2014 | Psychology, Thoughts
Nigh on a year ago, I vowed to myself (in the post On Shame…) that the shame in my heart was breathing its last breaths. I’ve been busting through those pockets of shame with a sledgehammer, hauling out those sharp edges that have caused me to feel broken, and patching up the holes with thoughts […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Feb 10 2014 | Curiousity, Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
There is a set of ideas floating around my head – a qualitative and definitive understanding relative to my current emotions and thoughts and evoked by recent events in my life. The main tenets of this soon-to-be formulated understanding of my world: 1) Fear is irrelevant. 2) Money is irrelevant. 3) Intuition is key. 4) […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 18 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
I’ve thought a lot about what it means to be human. I’ve recently had the following revelation: I can never be a “normal human” because of my brain’s formatting. There are other humans who have a similar brain build, but I don’t know how to find common ground with them. I don’t know how to find […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 12 2013 | Curiousity, Thoughts
I have been thinking about my perspective and overall disinterest in sitcoms today. I am feeling a heightened sense of overwhelm and upset that has been brought on by imagining my life as the life of a member of a typical sitcom. I have a sick feeling in the left side of my body. I […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 11 2013 | Thoughts
Some stuff I wrote out on my FB page, want to save it here for reference… Looking through various “feeds”, I note that my gut response to most popular items is apathy. I read through 100 or so responses to see if anyone can point out what actually makes the initial post so great… I […]
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