By Jane Tanfei|Nov 04 2013 | Curiousity, Thoughts
I’m not a hopeful person. At all. I don’t expect anything good to come to my life. I have a hard time accepting compliments. I don’t believe there is anything in the world for me but what I make for myself. I have trouble understanding why people even bother with me. Truthfully, most people don’t […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Nov 01 2013 | Thoughts
Equality – the state or quality of equivalence; correspondence in quantity, degree, value, rank, or ability. All things equal (pun intended), I think equality should stand for fairness for everybody. According to my society, I’d be wrong. I tend to interpret equality to mean that ALL people are equal. This means they are equal in […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Oct 18 2013 | Thoughts
I’ve been annoying myself lately with a lot of self-talk about how big my thighs are. It’s really irritating that I can’t escape these thoughts. For one thing, I’m normal sized for me. For another thing, there are way too many more important things I would rather be thinking about. Lastly, UGH why the crap […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Oct 16 2013 | Nerdcore, Psychology, Thoughts
I think one of the strangest things about me is that I genuinely feel love for everyone. Everyone. I feel empathy, caring, and love for every human on the planet. Even (sometimes especially) those who have expressed their hatred toward me. Now, I definitely see how this may seem contradictory, or like a waste of […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 27 2013 | Psychology, Thoughts, Writings
On September 19th, 2013 I walked into a neuropsychologist’s office a folder full of data and one main question: “What is wrong with me?”. An hour later, I walked out with an answer: Asperger’s Syndrome. The doctor reviewed the adult & childhood histories I’d provided, with many notes and explanations neatly denoted in the margins, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 19 2013 | Dreams, Psychology, Thoughts
I haven’t done a Thankful Thursday post in a long time, but felt like I should write one today. As you probably don’t know, I keep a handwritten journal – in addition to this blog – because I really do have a lot in my head that comes out at weird times. So, yesterday, I […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Sep 17 2013 | Dreams, Thoughts
I’ll admit it – I’m clueless when it comes to “romance”. I looked up “romance” and the only useful definition I could find was “a baseless, made-up story, usually full of exaggeration or fanciful invention.” So, I looked up “romantic” and found that it is “characterized by a preoccupation with love or by the idealizing of love or one’s beloved.” So, then I looked up “beloved”, which is “a person who is greatly loved” and “love” […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 27 2013 | Metaphysical Discussion, Thoughts
I’m not feeling too terribly bad today, thankfully, but I do have one very frustrating thought reiterating through my mind: “Everybody would be better off without me.” I am sick of thinking that. I know it’s not true, but I still think it all the time. So, while I listen to some Doc Watson music, […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Aug 26 2013 | Humor, Metaphysical Discussion, Psychology, Thoughts
If you know me in real life, or even if you just know me online, you know that I love nature. I, quite literally, cannot survive in the world without some connection to nature. When I stay inside for too long, I become anxious, angry, depressed, and then overwhelmed to the point where I become […]
Continue Reading →By Jane Tanfei|Jul 29 2013 | Thoughts
By the standards of the world, I am not beautiful. I’m too short, too buxom, too curvy, too zaftig, too hungry, too plain, too unmade, too spotty, to stretch-marked, too muscular, too natural, too uninterested, too hairy, too dark, and/or too modestly dressed. I will never be a size 0. I will never be taller […]
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