Thankful Thursday Dec 27, 2012
Let’s see here…
Well, I’m thankful to be age 28, because I never could see myself past that age. Granted, I’m still not past that age… but at least I’m still alive. Interestingly, I am seeing everything like new – every second is my first and last second of life. I am very aware of my mortality and just how fragile the human life can be. It is a little scary, but it is actually very freeing. Worries aren’t worth worrying about when you realize you might die within minutes in some very unexpected way.
Yes, I am a morbid person. But, I don’t see anything wrong with it. /shrug
Well, I’m also thankful for feeling love in my heart. Feeling love brings me great joy, and there is nothing bad about it at all. I feel so happy when I let myself feel. Because even though I feel as much sadness as happiness, that sadness is negated and has now become secondary to the happiness. Which, I think, is an indicator of the progress I have made emotionally and psychologically. I would have been wallowing in that sadness at any other time in my life.
I am thankful for feeling motivated. I am pleased that there is a brand new year full of brand new opportunities and brand new days to live.
Every day is a new day. This Exact Day has, literally, never existed before in the history of the universe. To that end, every day is special. And, from where I’m sitting, every day is a new day for success.
I think I’m feeling so excited because I am not worried. I let that all go. Now, my thoughts are centered around the things I want to do in my life and how I can achieve these things Today. This doesn’t mean I will achieve my goals Today, though. Success takes time to achieve. What it means is that Today, I will do something that will help me toward my goals. Even if it’s just typing to a blog about how motivated I feel to do things to help me toward my goals.
I love producing music, but it’s just not a reliable source of income for me. Unfortunately, I do not have the time or resources to spend trying to get more exposure for my music (you can listen to it at http://www.janetanfei.com/bio.html). As a result, I will likely remain in folk blues obscurity for the rest of my life. Which is actually fine with me. I love getting to know my fans on a personal basis. It’s really a neat thing… And, as long as I am making music, I will be putting it out there for the world to hear.
The goal I am particularly focused on right now is getting my existing small web design business off its rear-end and actually drumming up some new customers. In the meantime, I’ve been working on another small business – a crafts business that I want to get running as a reliable source of income. A third business that I want to have is a farm. At this point, I can only do so much with my little 1/4 acre city homestead, but it does have potential. And, I am able to provide for myself to some degree, even if it’s currently just by growing my own produce. Next year I want to add bees and berries as well as a few outdoor structures I will build myself. My dream of all dreams is not to have to work 40 hours a week away from my home. I’d like to run all of my businesses from my own 40 acres. I want to be self-sufficient.
And, I will be. Just not today.