Thankful Thursday – November 21, 2013
I haven’t done a Thankful Thursday post in quite some time. Honestly, I keep forgetting to.
The reason I started doing thankful posts was because I was having trouble pulling myself out of negativity. It seems that I’ve evolved a bit – I have been able change to a positive perspective without having to write it down first. And that is a very big step for me.
I need to celebrate somehow! My favorite way of celebrating these small victories has been to treat myself to compliments. Which is kind of sad in a way, but it’s good that I am finally able to tell myself something nice, even if I still have a hard time not feeling guilty or conceited for doing so.
Today’s compliments to myself: “You are making changes that are benefiting other people, too. You are more comfortable with yourself, aware of your mindset and capable of speaking when you need to. Your children love you and have told you so. You are making your life what you want it to be! You are succeeding where you never could have seen yourself succeed in years gone by. You are becoming what you need to be.”
Some things I am thankful for:
1) My children and their honesty. I talked to the older two yesterday and asked them what they think I could do to be a better mom to them. They want me to play more overall, do more crafts with them, and take them outside more often when we’re at home on the weekends. I asked them if they are happy with their lives, and they said they are VERY happy. I asked them what they like about me. Older son said, “You love us and always try to make things comfortable for us.” Daughter said, “You hug me and you’re warm and snuggly.” Little guy just put his arms around my neck and gave me some kisses. Where would I be without these children? I do not know and I never want to find out. I am so thankful for them.
2) People who tell me their genuine thoughts. I love hearing people’s true feelings, unencumbered by feigned social graces or political correctness. I love the nature of unedited thought and the way it leads to thoughtful discussion. It is very pleasant to me.
3) Having a relatively flexible schedule that allows me to make changes when something unforeseen arises.
4) Not having to worry about childcare while I work.
5) Having a safe place to go home to.
6) Feeling like I am presentable, comfortable in my own skin. I have noticed men noticing me lately. I don’t know why or what has changed that they look at me in that way… But it’s not altogether unpleasant to feel like I’m not the monstrosity I’ve traditionally felt myself to be. Granted, I don’t think I’m some amazing beauty, but it’s just somewhat relieving to recognize that some people do notice me, and not just when I have toilet paper hanging off my shoe.
7) Laughter. Laughter gets me through even the toughest of times. And, I actually feel like I have some truly happy laughter now, not just cynical or incredulous.
Take it easy my friend, I hope you are well.
– Jane